Fear x2

I am a scared person in general. I used to look at the curtains at night, and think that count dracula was behind them. Any moving leaves of a banana tree still gives me shivers at night. I think I've mentioned this before, but two of my biggest fears keep coming back to me in different ways. But to talk about this, let me talk about two things I don't fear. 1. Dying 2. Losing my mind If I die, it ends, and there's no feeling of being in any state. I don't care if my body is left naked, burned, pried open by wild animal. My body is not sacred, it's a variation of mud, water and organic material. Similarly, if I lose my mind, I am above feeling, guilt, remorse, heartbreaks, I'll be living in the present, and will only have to deal with the problem at hand, food, cold/heat, rest, etc. which, in my current condition may not be the worst thing in the world. Now on to what I fear. 1. Going blind 2. Not being able to move I hear about people with visual impairments going about their daily life. I can't see how. I tried to walk around my apt at night without the lights, and I stumbled into my iron, the walls, the living room table. I almost got my food cut too. I think my life will be drastically different if something like this happens. The movie, the Diving Bell and the Butterfly put the fear of being immobilised in me. It is a moving tale of having dignity after a tragedy, but I think I would be quite undignified. People overcome their fears, but I don't see how to even confront them.