Tuesday, July 15, 2008

545. A "Meg Ryan" Conversation

Dean sent me an email with the following line:

If this were one of my female friends, I would firmly say, "Life is not a Meg Ryan movie, you will not have a conversation where you get 'closure' ."


He was talking about a different context. But me being the self absorbed king of all things mannanmania, of course this reminded me about events this week about closure.

I was talking to someone with a long history with myself, and I suddenly realized that I had zero feelings left. At one point five/six years ago, I was so obsessed with this relationship, I was faking intimate situations with other people by visualizing past experiences with this special someone. But this time, I was civil, and only after ending the conversation did I realize how much I've moved on.

People say that love happens when you stop looking. I'm surprised to find that "Closure" also happens when you stop trying and start living your life to the fullest, messiest, wildest predicament.