Thursday, January 17, 2008

Flashing Red Lights

I was watching an old favorite TV series of mine, Now and Again. I think it's a brilliant series. There are these images from the series that still haunt me. Like Heather Mattarazzo being surrounded by butterflies. But no one else probably watched it, and it was cancelled after just one season.

The basic premise is that John Goodman dies, and they transplant his brain inside an artificial body, but the new younger man only wants to go back and reconnect with his wife and daughter. So I was watching this episode called "Deep in My Heart is a Song" where red flashing lights freezes his brain, and the story flashes back to the time when it first happened. Michael Wiseman (Goodman) goes to the doctor to get a diagnosis, and then comes back and tries to persuade his colleague to authorize doubling his life insurance. They go to the bar to talk it over, and John Goodman delivers this amazing monologue that reflected my current state of mind.

Here goes:
Michael:
There's always another thing

Roger:
What do you mean?

Michael:
Ah, it's like, I remember when I was a kid I always get myself into some sticky situation like, going down a hill, my brother's wagon backwards, thinking, Lord don't take me now, I haven't even kissed a girl yet.
When i was in college, one night, I was lying drunk, I was so drunk I was I didn't know how to breathe. I realized I was laying out in front of my dorm in the snow, without any clothes on, I can't move, probably gonna die, and I'm thinking, Lord, don't take me now, I haven't accomplished a damn thing yet. Sorry.

Roger:
It's OK.

Michael:
Oh, When Lisa was giving birth, I was driving her to the hospital, I was just feeling so responsible, and thinking, Lord, I really want this child, just get us to the hospital in one piece. Don't let me hit anything, don't let anything hit us, I'll never bother you again. I'll never ask you for another thing.

But there's always another thing, isn't there?